So since I've started seeing a dr for my headaches/stress level/TMJ, i've changed a few things about my life that i THINK have been helping so I wanted to share them!

• Ive started sleeping with the TV and am LOVING it so far.  I've slept with the tv on for 25 years, every single night, and i cut it off cold turkey & sleep better as a result.  
• Ive started drinking protein shakes every morning.  My dr. said that the worst thing I do is not eat breakfast, so he told me to have a protein shake in the morning which will start my day off right and give me more energy.  He was so right, the other night I went to the grocery store at 8:30pm...usually im done for the day by 4 because im just too tired to move.  So I'm really loving the results of just the shakes alone.
• YOGA.  I haven't gotten full blown into yoga yet, but my dr said it will help me  A LOT.  But i did get a yoga mat and right after I get out of bed I do a few stretches & stuff to get my muscles movin.  I told my dr how absolutely horrific yoga/meditation is for me because i cant concentrate or turn my brain off, and he said it will take tons of practice so i'm willing to start off verrry slow and go from there.  
• breathing- ive changed the way i breathe as recommended by my dr.  every change i get, i take deep breaths in through my belly instead of short quick breaths.  it helps release my tension & jaw tightness. 

So far everything he's recommended has been working..i still have jaw tightness all day everyday, but he said it will take a while to undo all the damage i've done.  So i've been going in weekly to get cracked & stretched...its getting expensive but im willing to try anything before going to a real dr who will just write me a prescription.  Im still having trouble with the WHY'S...like why am I like this when theres millions of stressed out people who arent in pain all the time, why is taking such a toll on my body, why do i feel like im 55 when im 25.....its annoying and i know it could be worse, but im doing everything i can do help change it and i guess thats all i can do! 

my morning smoothies

kramer doing his daily yoga

heres a few pix from our crazy picture day!

have i ever said how much i love my boys? cause i LOVE my boys!!

im so excited, our wedding was featured on the lovliest day!

in celebration, im making copycat cheesecake factory cheesecake! (ok i would have made it anyways!)

yesterday i spent a GORGEOUS late afternoon at the park with kramer & annie...its one of my favorite places to be especially on a nice day.

magnos still working a lot (8am-7pm) so im REALLY glad tomorrw is friday! he works on saturday but usuallly comes home early, so that makes it somewhat better:) hope everyone has a happy weekend!

Things I'm Afraid to Tell You.

I've seen so many of my favorite blogs do this & im so guilty of LOVING to hear gossip, this is sorta gossip...its in the same category! & I'm always looking for new things to blog about besides my boring life, so here goes!

1. I worry CONSTANTLY.  about everything, especially things I cannot control.   It's bad.  And I havent always been that way, or at least not to this extent.  If im driving, I constantly am picking dogs running out in front of me and running them over, if im showering im thinking about falling and hitting my head, if im sleeping, im worried about the things i wont be able to control tomorrow.  im high strung to say the least.

2. im clingy.  but only with my husband.  im obsessed with being with him!  you can imagine how miserable i am now that he leaves for work at 8am and doesnt get home till 7:30 at night!  whenever he's home, i want all his free time for ME! im greedy that way.   Im secretly jealous of all the wives who have their husbands home with them at 4 pm...its like they still have a whole day with them after work! i miss magno, im a baby.

3. i dont want to be just a wife.  this probably surprises some people because im outwardly obsessed with being married & all that good stuff.  i LOVE being a homemaker(i guess thats what you call it!) but i also know that i need something else.  I'm glad i at least know what that something else is, i just have to get there.

4.im fascinated with expats.  from my understanding via two of my favorite blogs, an expat is either a person or a family who moves to a different country for a job..i could be wrong..but thats the jist of it i think.  especially the wives.  i cannot even begin to tell you how miserable id be having to move to another country with my husband the only one i know, but having him at work all day.  well, i guess i wasnt afraid to say that, its just something you didnt know:)

5. i want kids.  i say i dont, and i even think that i dont, but i know i do.  maybe like 2 of them, nothing too crazy.  not now and not soon, but we will have one eventually. sorry kramer.

and that concludes this post, which now that i wrote it, seems to be as boring as all the other posts!

heres a little bit of what weve been up to lately.

this is tomato, the crazy thumb cat who lives outside our new(and old!) place..shes so cute!

i made kramer a bow tie collar just because its so stinkin cute

we finally brought over the washer and dryer, immediately after, the washing machine broke & gushed water all over the kitchen.

i made another pinterest craft....egg carton flowers for our white string lights

i was graced with my husbands presence on a weekday, so so rare! he quit his current job & got a whole day off since he didnt start his new job till the following monday. 

so he finally got to meet sweet hazel girl!

for mothers day we got my mom a bird bath for the yard & we brought magnos mom over her favorite meal & movies.

kramer is adjusting to his new/old home:)

magnos been getting off around 4 everyday this week which for us is REALLY early plus the weather has been amazing so we went to the circle and had dinner together for the first time in months and months! we only stayed about 20 minutes so it was a short dinner date but still nice:)

so even though it was unplanned & totally chaotic, we moved!! yep, again. this is our 6th move in 5 years.  totally normal, right?  NOT!!!!! For 2 people who HATE moving as much as we do, we sure do it a lot.  Anyways, heres how this move came about.  Like I mentioned a few posts ago, Magno is going to be starting another job.  In his position, even though he gets paid hourly, he also gets paid commission, & it takes a while for the commission to kick in once he starts the job.  So, coming off an already hard financial position from his crazy job year, we were both worried that staying in irvine wouldn't be the smartest choice because of how high rent is alone.  We want to have more of a cushion so that money is that last thing he's worried about going into this new job, where he will be working 10 hours a day 6 days a week.  So, we decided to move back to orange into the apartment we left from last September.  My sister still lives there & had a somewhat spare bedroom, so we decided that would be a good option for us, at least for the summer while Magno gets his groove at the new job.  It also works out perfectly because my sister works for a school, so her income is cut in half over the summer when school is out.  So I think its just one of those things where everything seemed to work, so we just did it!  Our apartment lease in irvine wasnt up until the end of July though, so I posted an ad on Craigslist to see if somebody wanted to sublet it from us.  Low and behold, they did!  On Thursday I went to hang out with my friend at downtown disney and I came home to this.

Not only did the new renters want it, but they needed us to be out by Saturday!!! I panicked a little, but got straight to work.  Magno had to work all day Friday so that didn't help, but I had our friend Hector there with me all day luckily.  This is what it lookedl like by Friday night.  Poor kramer, his eyes say HELP ME!!!

On Saturday night at midnight, this is what it looked like.

we lucked out and the same people who wanted our apartment also wanted our couch, so we sold that & didnt have to move it, win win!! On sunday morning we woke up and magno took one last trip to the irvine apartment to drop off keys and stuff like that.  Then we dropped everyting & ignored the fact that the entire new apartment looked like a bomb went off and went to see the avengers with my parents and our moving helper hector:) It was SUCH a good movie.  Then, back to reality.  So today, Monday night, this is what our new room rooms like.  This is the same room I helped my sister paint yellow just a few weeks ago, not having any clue we would move in here! So now, I'm gunna try to live with the yellow walls but I already hate it so Im thinking i'll have to paint it haha.  Here it is now, totally cluttered, all of our stuff is just HERE, but not where it belongs! So thats where I'll be working on this whole week.

and heres the color i plan on painting the bedroom as soon as i get enough energy.

on friday night i actually went out...it was nothing short of a miracle!  Me & my sister went to visit our friend Hilarie's new apt in long beach.  It is the coolest apartment, built in 1920, spanish style, original hardwood floors....my dream apartment.  AND, her rent is $400 cheaper a month LESS than ours here in sterile irvine.  boo for us, yay for her..such a cool place!

afterwards we went to her favorite local bar where they have kareeoke.  We all did a trio of the fresh prince of bel air theme song. it was a hot mess, but we had fun.

On saturday we had to zombify ourselves for my cousins sweet sixteen birthday party, which was walking dead themed!  I chose to be a zombie kate middleton

My parents were " 70's sleep walkers", annie was Lori (we decided to put a bullet hole in her head since everyone wants lori to die on the next season of the show!) & megan was herself but a zombie haha, such a lovely family photo.

on sunday me and my boys went to my favorite park & walked the perimeter of it...such good exersize & pretty views, i love that park so much!

later on annie came over & we went to a new store in irvine called daiso. its an asian store & everything is $1.50....plus, the whole store is pink!! I got so much stuff, asian people really know how to do it right!

monday night we went over to annies so magno could connect her internet so while he was doing that, we went to cherry on top...so good!

and because all i did on tuesday was work on my website, heres a picture of dinner.  so exciting, i know.

to say im a freak of nature is a bit an understatement.  every single day i have anxiety about earthquakes, and today we actually had one which of course ruined my whole day.  im STILL shaking, i can't even tell you how afraid of earthquakes I am and i HATE being on the 4th floor during one & all by myself. it was only a 3.9 but it was just a few miles away so it felt pretty strong. kramer just barked then went back to his favorite activity.

going back to a few weeks ago, the sweetest little girl in the whole world was born! Hazel June Donatelli.  Our friend Lacey had her & a few days later I went over to visit...she is the first baby I've ever held! For a few days there, she gave me some serious baby fever, but im back to my old self again.  I still want HER, just not a baby of my own haha.

hat same weekend i went to the old towne orange car show with my parents and my sister. we had breakfast in the circle beforehand & had a nice morning walking around seeing all the crazy cars

I haven't been able to spend too much time with Magno lately because he's been working his butt off with his only day off being Sunday...and at that point he's too tired to leave the house.  It sucks to say the least & I've been extra stressed lately.  It's been causing me to clench my teeth really bad all night long so by the time I wake up in the morning, my head is killing me along with my jaw, neck, back..everything.  I've had a lot of sick days lately & its SO discouraging and gives me even more stress!  I've had enough & have started looking into stress management & meditating...i've gotta do something about it because its only gunna get worse now that magno made the choice to switch jobs again!! The place he just started working at a few months ago is going well, but he kept getting offered a job by a competing company (his friend got the same offer a few months ago & accepted it) so after talking to his friend & seeing his success at that company, magno took the job.  He will start sometime in May & it will be difficult to get his pipeline going again which will cause his stress, which will cause me stress....but, it should be worth it.  He put a lot of though into his decision & thinks its the right one...so, here we go again! I'm working on getting my website up & going too, that way I can start putting myself out there and getting more brides.  I have a wedding coming up in July that i'm excited about..the bride & groom just got their engagement pix done & they turned out amazing!

ihave big plans for my website so im exiting to get it going!:) this past weekend was a first where magno had Saturday off! We spent the morning at home then went to get some snowflakes & visit our friend gibson.  Afterwards we drove around irvine looking at some houses, our favorite thing to do haha, then we ran to the store real quick to get some things for fight night.  Fight nights always get sprung on me so i never have anything planned, i yell at magno everytime haha

the next day (after having NO sleep that night due to kramer being sick..must have picked up too many droppings from fight night food, poor guy!) i woke up and went to my sisters house so we could go to the LA book festival and meet one of our idols, bethenny frankel!  We watched her do a short interview then stood in line so she could sign our book.  Shes so awesome.  Magno makes fun of me for liking her, but i dont care-shes amazing!

so thats it for now...keep your fingers crossed for me that I can learn how to manage my stress & relieve my every day all day headaches!!

oh my goodness, I'm SO glad its Friday.  What a long, annoying week it has been.  One day sick with cramps, one day sick with migraine, and every day a new stress pops up.  Weeks like this, its important to remember the picture above.  & its pretty to look at too:) Goodbye, week from hell - you won't be missed! 

birthdays & showers

This week I worked an event for google. pretty random, i know.  My fellow wedding planning friend is interning at an event production company and called me asking if i'd be interested in helping for the day.  Well, i love google so i said yes!  Plus, it was really close to our apartment (at UCI) so besides having to wake up at 6am, it wasn't that bad...i made sure to fill up on the google coffee thats for sure!

after that random day of work, it was back to business as usual.  I met my july bride at her wedding venue in pamona....its a pretty cool place & im excited for their cuban themed wedding!

This weekend was St. Pattys Day.  We never do anything for that cuz i just dont care!  Instead, I went to my friend Laceys baby shower!  Shes due in April & her bump is just the sweetest thing.  Cant wait to see how cute her baby is gunna be because its a fact that she only makes cute babies!

lacey opening all her cute girly gifts

 megan, lacey, and me

 kathy telling the baby to turn haha:)

 shannon, lacey, and kristen

 all the cousins plus me and megan hahaha.

 the only time lacey will ever have a gut!

after the shower we must have wanted to have bumps like lacey because we went to my parents house and ate non stop.  my mom made prime rib, mashies, bread, and corn then we made a whole mess of dessert & devoured all of it. 

Sunday was my dads 60th birthday!  We started the day off by having breakfast at the original pancake house in anaheim.  the food was AMAZING & lunch was not necessary that day.  For dinner we went tot belmont shores and picked up his favorite pizza.  we had some family over & were all glued to the tv for the walking dead finale.  Then it was cake and presents as usual...cant believe my dads 60!! sounds so much older than 59!!

now im off to go drink more coffee & hope this headache goes away!